Some rambles about art and drawing to round out my lunch hour at work.............
I get into horrible mental habits when it comes to artwork, especially my own artwork. I recently heard from a person (via text and e-mail, since she wasn't sure I had the same phone number) I knew back on FA and haven't spoken to in nearly a year now. She was saying that she missed drawing and hasn't drawn in a very long time.......she's afraid to draw, because she hasn't drawn in such a long time. But it makes me think about my own art, too, even when I'm telling her she should just try to draw consistently for a few weeks, even tiny drawings.
We all get into art slumps............I've been in one for nearly a month now. I've only been slowly coloring old things laying around and I've drawn maybe about 5 new things TOTAL since the beginning of the year. I seriously have to get these three pages of "Lemonade" I have sitting around colored................! headdesk
I get to a point where I get frustrated with myself drawing because.................I have a bad habit of facing characters in one direction, so then I start to feel there's a "sameness" to my work. And then when I consciously try to face a character in the opposite direction.............I feel it's not as good. It looks weird and stuff.
You can't really stop what your brain thinks..............but you should try to keep going, even when you're unhappy with something, because you might eventually break through that barrier. Maybe sometimes you really have to keep drawing in that one direction until you can break that habit.......?
So another thing has been...........trying to do shading/lighting in traditional pieces, mostly. I know my stuff's not realistic, but when I just do flat-colored things anymore--this also feels very weird to me. So I started doing a "flat-color" series with Wabi........partly to get over the thing of doing flat-colored pieces and partly to use my massive amounts of stickers to make fancy new outfits with. XD I kind of hoard stickers and never use them all on letters............! I also got a new little cutter, it's a very small, swiveling blade.......so it's not as unwieldy as my X-Acto knife. It's been nice to cut the stickers with. I've done two drawings so far and have a third laid out in pencil.
I do have to color those 40-odd things in my digital to-color folder one day. And I had a great idea I shared with Mao about a drawing.............which I really want to do that to. Considering when I have my colonoscopy at the end of the month...............I'm going to have a few days off of work............? So it might be a time to get some of that stuff done. And maybe get some art mojo back??? laughs
I think mostly I should just say.............no matter how you really feel about your own art, the best way to evolve or accept your stuff is to just keep doing it until you're finally satisfied at where you are. Because if you give up because you're unhappy with your art--you really won't be able to improve your art. It's easy to say "I'm not drawing until I feel better"...............but when it gets to be weeks or months or years since you last drew something--then your fear is "what if I can't draw anymore?" and that is a really horrible fear to have! @_@