I think you all deserve a bit of an update. As you've probably noticed my activity has been rather sporadic and if you've commissioned me you know that things are taking a loooong time to get back to you.

Well. The problem is life. It's getting in the way. I have two lovely daughters. One of which has not started school yet and the other attending school in the next city which is about a 30 minute car ride away. My wife is the main income at the moment and we only have one car. So between driving my kid to school and my wife to work I can spend upwards of 6 hours of my day just driving people around. Driving in a car that constantly breaks down. If it ever decided to not start one day I'd just be completely fucked. I've been fortunate enough to know enough about cars to be able to fix what broke, but, there is only so much I can do.
So when I'm not driving I'm playing my role as stay-at-home dad. So I'm keeping kids entertained, cleaning, cooking, errands. I sat down one day and estimated what time I do have to myself and it turned out to be something like 2 hours or less during the day. More if I sacrifice sleep, which is when I try and stream and make some immediate cash.
I also discovered somewhere in the beginning of last year that I suffer from anxiety and depression. It's been going on for a long time but I recently confirmed it. It makes it REALLY difficult to make the little time I have productive. I want to just do something to make me forget what's going on rather than opening files and staring a them trying not to hate myself.

I'm not trying to sound whiney or make excuses for myself. I don't want pity. I just really think you guys deserved to know what's going on. I'll be fine. I'm taking steps to improve things in my life. Things are also falling into place that will free up a bunch of time for me, but won't be in effect till later on in the year. So hopefully that will result in more work for me.

Thanks for following, supporting me and putting up with my bullshit. It's really difficult for me to share personal details about myself like this.

~fb83

TL;DR - I'm incredibly busy and very tired. Sorry, for disappearing all the time. Things will get better for me soon. Thanks a bunch!