I've learned that I've got the job at the cornershop in the next estate, which in turn will lead to the other aspirations deep in my heart and mind. The job begins with me being trained on the tills tomorrow morning, and though I'm not sure what the minimum number of hours is exactly, I'll be able to save about £350 per month even with the lowest hour count. And if I continue to ration my food, water and electricity, I can save even more money. Nothing else except my goals has occupied my mind in the past few weeks, so I have every intention of giving it my all in this job so that I will be kept on after the probationary period. My dear friend ReokuKurosai, who does the same sort of job, has also lent me some very valuable advice, so I feel I can do this without a problem. ^^

I'm also going to my very first anime convention from July 1st to July 4th - the London Anime & Gaming Con. I've been going on anime binges recently, and I feel fired up to attend this event, even though not a whole lot of information has been advertised about this year's event yet. I haven't desired anything this much for a very long time, and if any of you are also going to this convention, I cannot wait to see you there! I haven't decided what I'll wear or if I'll cosplay for this yet, but this decision should be made a bit closer to the day. ;3

Just five days after that, I'll be going to the Electric Daisy Carnival, which takes place in my city this year. Trance composers from all over the world are going to be there, and Club Culture Live has been inviting these composers to throw down the sets they've crafted. I mentioned in my previous journal that I wanted to emigrate to America. But I have to admit - the Trance scene in my continent is the main thing that has kept me here. And while mainstream music has got worse as time has gone by and their 'artists' have become more arrogant and cocky, Trance has been going from strength to strength. I will be showcasing some pictures from both of these events once I get back. ^^

However, I have chosen to leave SoFurry. Not only did I not like its lack of support for PDF files and the inability to add watermarks to the files I posted there (which made it harder for me to upload there), but I have also just discovered that it is the only site out of the four that I am currently active on that allows cub porn to be posted. As well as refusing to be associated with sickening material like this, this also makes it dangerous for me to visit the site due to the laws in my country, so I will be wiping my gallery clean and, if possible, closing down my SoFurry account. I also hate InkBunny for the very same reason, and I know that it's notorious for the amount of cub porn they host, hence I have refused even to enter the site. I will still remain active on the remaining three websites, but I will start to use my YouTube page soon, since I've found I can get a good picture from my mobile phone. Not great, but acceptable quality; it'll do until I get the camcorder I want.

My debut novel's planning is still underway, and I don't expect it to be finished for some time yet. As well as that, I've finished repairing my netbook after a problem with its display driver stopped the Linux OS from being able to boot at all, meaning I can return to the other stories that must still be completed. Writing is a passion I still hold dear to my heart, and maybe I can offer haikus or a series of them on offer at a convention one day. However, I have these days chosen to focus on stories rather than poetry, since I believe I'm nowadays a better storyteller than I am a poet. But while I still plan to learn how to draw as well, it will be a long time before I can offer any images on commission.

I plan to purchase my first Fursuit in June or July - a Partial suit of Sharp, or a Full one if I can get someone to make a DTD for me without arousing their suspicion. I hope that despite her not being my gender, I can make her look convincing; I've had trouble mimicking her voice (who I imagine to sound like Calhoun from Wreck-It Ralph or Catalina from Grand Theft Auto 3), but hopefully that should change over time. I'm between her casual clothing or her nurse's uniform, but do let me know what you think would look better. :3 In August will come my new passport and American visa (if required), and then booking my place at GFM. I'm certain those will be the best few days of my life, as well as the days leading up to it that I get to spend with Reoku. <3

My drive to achieve these desires is running so high, it's basically the only fuel I have. They've taken hold of my mind, and I have no intention of letting my dreams go unfulfilled. I see talk shows and documentaries of various kinds that show people having reached an old age and having absolutely nothing to show for the years they've lived. This is not what I want to be. Too long have I let life go by without me. Too long have I wasted money on things that are not worthwhile. Too long have I been at the mercy of my own insecurities. Too long have I let my own jealousy consume me. All of that ends now, and I will achieve the fame I want.

I know exactly what sort of person I am and what I want from my life now. And nobody is going to stand in my way.

BKT