I sit here eating lunch and I find myself proud of my progress. In the last couple months I've worked hard on improving myself, artistically and professionally. Though... I have come to find that my romance life is...flawed and broken. I am in a relationship but... I believe I have to stop it before I hurt someone. I feel obligated to give them attention because they showered me with gifts but... I... Don't feel like having a relationship right now. It's hard because I know what I must do... Pulling a bandaid off...I want friends yes but I am just not ready for any kind of romantic relationship...

I got out of a long relationship that ended in a divorce... I just got my independence... Got my self esteem up... I just...want to develop myself and if I feel a connection I will go for it...

I am sorry I even started it... I just want to be friends.