lol i know there's a lot problems in this picture, especially the water.
I couldn't find any proper samples of 'walking on shallow water' so yeah, if anyone of you seen any, please share with me xD

I'm slowly remembering back of how I used to be, before I even met Kyun aka my ex-gf. I think back then, I really loved to draw nature scenery. It was really hard of course because I always wanted to go for more details on the grasses, flowers, leaves and etc. My dream is to become a professional artist and at that time, I've always been a lonely person with only few friends. I didn't mind at all.

Then Kyun came into my life, made me much more happier than I was before. My mind was so full of her every time. I was quite misanthropic as well, only to be removed such thoughts by her afterwards. She show me how love is like, it's really blissful feeling, engraved right into my heart. I wished to stay together with her until death do us apart. And suddenly, she left me behind, leaving all the memories we made together behind, everything.

She left a very deep hole in my heart. Never once I felt lost this much. I feel like I wanted to stop living.
"Because you're childish, even if you do change for the better, I'm still not interested in you anymore", her words keep repeating in my head over and over.
"Why did you lie to me? I thought you loved me all this time" is something I kept asking myself over and over.
Every morning I woke up from sleep, the first thing I usually remembered was her. But now, I get panic attacks whenever I remember her. I was afraid and tremble a lot because I cannot depend on her like I used to.

Time passed.
My best friend, Akhera woke me up along the way and Byowt reminded me of how I used to be before I met Kyun. I'm slowly gaining my confidence after chatting with several people who added me on skype.
My heart continue to feel empty without love but I will fill them with something else instead - The beauty of nature which I've always yearn for.
"This time, I will depend and love only myself. I want to improve my drawing skills and aim high up. I want to try living independently." that was my current resolve.

Until now, I'm still trying to block the memories of the past and fill up with only the beautiful nature scenery I can imagine.