I don't dream very often, no it is not me just remembering them... Medically there is an issue with my sleep that means I don't dream, I do not get REM sleep and when I do it is not the right kind. However medication that helps my condition makes me dream again. I am not dreaming really often, however I have been having more of them, but I am on new medication.

The dreams are not a bad thing, in fact I quite like dreaming. When asked about my dreams by the doctors (they where worried about nightmares) and I was like well they are just dreams. They are mixed. Plus nightmares never bothered me any way, since I wake up. Logic it away and then go back to sleep. They are just dreams.

This was one of the first dreams I have had in over a year, when I just started my new medication. I think that is why it has stuck in my head so much even though dreams normally fade quickly when we wake up. I say one of the first, because I did have a couple of mundane dreams when I started dreaming again. This one was a couple of nights in.

In this dream there was a headless women singing (I don't know how, but that is dreams for you) to pigeons and feeding them. She was just like a harmless women like you would see in the streets feeding birds. However she was headless and it was pretty gory and pretty graphic. Myself in the dream just kind of what past her like I would walk past any one else in the street. Mind you I am from Manchester and you do get all sorts. However it was just like that, I was completely unfazed by her.

The version of me I could see in the dream was calm, I was just walking past her. The women seemed content singing to the pigeons. The song was a calming song too, like the women was perfectly happy and so were the pigeons. However there was this like internal monologue, going oh wow that is pretty graphic. Since the dream was a lot more graphic then I have drawn. I didn't think think I would have the skill to get across that part of the dream so I stylized it any way. Not helped by the fact that when I often dream the edges always have an unclear fussy-ness about them any way. This dream did have that feeling too...

So I felt art wise this was the best way to kind of do it. Since the image stuck with me I kind of wanted to get it down on paper. I also have a friend who dreams often with dreams that inspire their art and I am a little jealous of that actually. So I think it is kind of cool that I had a dream which I could draw, that I could show people. Even if it was kind of horror/guro. Like I don't even class it as like a nightmare really, since there was a moment of wow that was graphic. However that was it. The rest of it I was unfazed by her and she seemed happy with the pigeons.